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As can be noticed from the onset, the title of this track is actually a date –June 18, 2018.This was the day upon which a close friend androle model of Billie’s, the late rapper XXXTentacion,was murdered. As such, she wrote and dedicated this song to him in the wake of that tragedy.
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You can view the lyrics, alternate interprations and sheet music for Billie Eilish's 6.18.18 at Lyrics.org.
The track starts off with Billie acknowledging that indeedher friend is dead.Owing to this, she no longer has the opportunity toexpress words to him that she wanted him to hear. She is of coursedevastated but understands that her love is not going to bring him back.
The chorus finds Billie desiring to put the past behind her as in accept the fact that her friend is dead and move on.However, thoughts of him permeate her thinking, and she still very much loves XXXTentacion.
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JAPPakM4Tkg
The second verse is based on Eilish being in directcommunication with XXXTentacion around the time he died.Apparently shehad sent him a message and was expecting a reply but instead came to find outthat he was murdered.This news affected her so strongly that she neededassistance to get home upon hearing it.And now she feels a sense of guiltin that she was not able to tell her friend goodbye.
Additionally, the bridge finds Billie expressing that theyare too young to die.Indeed XXXTentacion didn’t even reach the age of 21,which is a fact Eilish brings up in the song.And she once again alludesto the monumental grief she felt by stating that she almost prayed when he died.Butapparently her disbelief in God prevented her from doing such.
Ultimately the sentiment expressed throughout this song is not only one of mourning but also disappointment on the part of Billie in that she did not use the opportunity to tell a friend how much she cared while he was still around to hear those words.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=76mONfME90c
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Liyah says:
April 1, 2019 at 11:54 pm
The background vocals on the second verse sound like him
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james says:
May 18, 2019 at 11:14 am
Ikr I was wondering how she got the vocals to sound like him
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celena says:
January 5, 2020 at 4:54 pm
this is sad asf
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killua says:
November 9, 2020 at 8:17 am
best song ever even tho i cried the whole time
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Kay says:
November 12, 2020 at 4:02 pm
It hits different
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Andrea says:
December 7, 2020 at 5:05 pm
finneas was singing in the background also thats why lmao
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jgsnkf says:
December 22, 2020 at 7:31 pm
i love billie i feel so bad for her and the meaning in this song makes me cry every time i hear it
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Anonymous says:
January 7, 2021 at 7:51 pm
What’s the 27 club? we aint makin it past 21
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Anonymous says:
April 4, 2021 at 3:32 pm
it means he didn’t even make it to the age of 21
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That guy says:
August 14, 2022 at 11:39 am
Lil’ Peep, XXXTentacion and Juice Wrld, who next? really not making it past 21 ): ):
What’s the 27 club? We ain’t makin’ it past 21. I’ve been going through paranoia, so i always gotta keep a gun.
Damn, that’s the world we live in now. Yeah, hold on, just hear me out.
They tell me imma be a legend, i don’t want that title now. ‘Cause all the legends seem to die out, what the f is this ’bout?Reply
~Moon_of_Stars~ says:
February 24, 2021 at 4:42 pm
Such a tragedy…so sad. *cries* =´(
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Angelece Lay (8328354119) says:
April 30, 2021 at 7:11 pm
We all love you Billie 🥰 and all your fans are here to support you, don’t give up please, and keep ur head up💞
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Anonymous says:
June 4, 2021 at 3:04 am
I legit cried during this song.
I know how much he means to her.Reply
Anonymous says:
June 10, 2021 at 5:30 pm
This Song is so sad! Its meaning makes me cry! It is really important song.
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Mad's says:
February 27, 2022 at 11:38 pm
this happened on my 9th birthday
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Sharon says:
March 31, 2022 at 2:31 am
This song is so beautiful and so sad I actually felt the pain. A truly beautiful expression of love and loss ♥️
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Arabella says:
April 6, 2022 at 3:16 pm
Oh my god. This song is perfect and beautiful and sad and amazing all on one. I play this song when writing sad scenes in my current book and I swear it gets me crying and in the mood ever single time.
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Jazlyn ???? says:
August 22, 2023 at 10:56 pm
its been 5 years since jahseh has passed away what hurts most is how the child him & jenesis sanchez shared together won’t even be able to see his father besides pictures it hurts because the industry took him out as well he was a touching spirit no one can understand that .
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Noah #LLJ says:
November 4, 2023 at 7:58 am
That was disgusting of Micheal Boatwright. Killing a 20 yr old rapper to steal 50000 dollars man. LLJ
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